Same is the case with me also .I allow friends to borrow them from me . They of course return them after reading . I am keeping with me of course a lot of books with me . They are my friends as well as my soldiers to Stand for Truth . I love them . I keep with me books of every field including Medical studies .Being a man concentrating on Writing ,I keep them all for my personal reference . I have books and commentaries of almost all the religions and cults of the world .I visit a famous library of our town also .
The sad thing in my Life : Number of news papers and magazines on social causes are available in our place . I started innumerable such materials almost for 20 years and kept them with me as bundles .
Whenever I shifted to an yet another rented house , I suffered much to shift the heavy paper bundles also with me . In our present house also I kept them with me for three years . I considered them as a great treasure which can be used for my writing purpose .
My health fell down . The ton loads of paper bundles started fungus smell which now and then affected my breathing . I had problem with my heart even . I was under medication . No guarantee for my life . At this time , when I sit before my computer , the fungus smell used to reached my nose ( then lungs ) through the ventilation of the next room where I kept the huge paper bundles .
I was afraid , " I may be greatly affected by the fungus smell " . I felt it a question mark for mine , my wife's as well as my children's health .
From my own experience I coined a proverb myself ." A period of struggle for existence is not at all a period of achievement " . I hope it is true . I had been running hard for my very survival . I tried for help from many ,but in vain . I thought of appointing some educated girls ,train them and use them to cut and collect away all the useful things and leave the waste out . At last I thought , it would affect any one ( any girl ) who deals with it . I went some untold hardships because of which I could not preserve the papers with plastic wrappers even .
I thought that the papers with the fungus smell need not affect any human being . I had so strict with my wife and children that they should not take any paper without showing it to me . I kept them as a most valuable treasure . When i felt it to be a matter with life and death , one day I just called for a company which deals with such antiques , and asked them just to take away from my house . I never asked them for any rate . Some four well-bodied men came started shifting the time from my house . They stood wonder-struck to see that much paper materials in my house . Hence they once again came with their trucker and shifted the items as the second load also .
My friend , go-between was there between us . Yet I never asked for anything with him .
He returned with some money and said it weighed some thousands of kilograms .
The precious things I kept with me for nearly 20 years , of course went off from me . My wife and children couldn't understand me . Yet I bade farewell to it wishing it reach some other worthy scholar for his Revolutionary Work .Surely a great treasure went off from me .I felt so . Any one who is interested in such a thing will understand it .Yet I tolerated . If I am alive and safe ,I may do at least something for the welfare of humanity .The treasure went off from me ,but my life is with me somewhat safe .
Some people who thus commit themselves for the welfare of the whole humanity , some times remain helpless due to their struggle for existence .People around such scholars fail to understand their urgent needs also . Consequently Works can not be done in time and such irrecoverable losses take place which becomes a so-called triumph for the Evil Power on earth .
There may be number of men and women (great lovers of knowledge ) ,who due to lack of proper and timely supports mighty have lost great treasures which they kept with them for long time ( for the Welfare of the whole Humanity )
Economically poor scholars need so many basic facilities and supports, without which many of them gave up some of their great Attempts to Relive humanity from Pain .
Christian